I have had a very interesting couple of days. From the never ending thunderstorms here in Michigan, to the multiple of graduations and open houses, to the death of one my brothers…it has been a roller coaster. Strangely, I find that my walk with Christ has been both ignited and suppressed in these few days.
The thunderstorms caused me to wander. I was frustrated because I couldn’t watch TV or continually check my email or facebook. I didn’t have the luxury of microwave popcorn or the ability to even charge up my cell phone. It would seem like I would embrace the opportunity to find God in these moments. It would seem that I would simply thank God for more of an opportunity to get to no Him, but I didn’t. The tornado that touched down in Michigan caused my walk with Christ to be attacked.
I have loved the great joy of attending graduations, going to open houses and receiving graduation cards. These events have caused so many mixed feelings inside of me. I have the feeling of excitement. I am so excited for what is to come through EPIC Church in Kansas City. I am so excited about meeting new people and starting college. Yet I’m nervous about leaving my friends and family. I’m afraid that I may never see particular people again. I’m afraid that my walk with Christ may change drastically, even for the good. These thoughts both ignite and suppress my desire to know Christ more.
One of my brothers on my Dad’s side passed away this week, after complications with surgery. This has fueled my walk with Christ. This has caused me to search for him and to ask him to search for me. My family telling me that they need to “get right with God” after hearing that I am in the ministry, causes me to have a deeper desire for prayer for both their souls and my own.
Why am I telling you these things? Because quite often in our lives it takes life changing moments and life changing decisions for us to become more intimate with Christ. And so very often we miss the opportunities that God gives us to reach out to Him. Yet he has called us to so much more. His desire is for us to desire Him all of the time. I have been reminded consistently of this verse that encourages consistency…
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
The favor of the Lord has fallen on my life. He has shown me His goodness and his Grace. You and I are simply asked to love and walk with our God consistently. That is my desire to walk with him in such a way that no major event can phase me. But that type of consistency can only come through God. We must chase after him with a fire and desire that is unending…